Will You Walk With Me?

And then just maybe, beyond the bend, I'll see you,
Just maybe I'll say Hello and you smile,
A smile as mesmerizing with my eyes open as closed.
Maybe we will talk,
As we walk,
Together , while we figure out where it is this leads.
We will tell our stories, our pains, our sorrows,
Braving the rain, merry at the sunshine, dreaming of the rainbow, 'morrow.
For a moment our fates entwine in the fabric of time,

Weaving a pattern both beautiful and sublime.

There it is the fork, where we part ways.
Your and mine: our no more stays.
And then if I ask - "Will you walk with me?"
Your's, mine, our's;  any; as long as you stay with me.
Forever and always
Will you walk with me?

When I Am All Alone

When I am all alone,
That is when it hurts the most,
That is when I allow myself to think of you.
When I am all alone.

When I am all alone,
That is when I spin dreams,
Dreams of you and me, 
Your fingers entwined in mine,
Sitting at a bench in the park,
Your head on my shoulders,
The gentle breeze blowing away strands of hair, slowly, quietly,
Almost hesitant to disturb the serenity of your face,
When I am all alone.

When I am all alone,
That is when I allow myself to think of your smile,
When my eyes would open with the rising sun,
With you in my arms and you would look up at me and smile.
That was my sunshine, that smile.
When I am all alone.

When I am all alone,
I remember our shared moments,
Our banter, Our fights, our makeups and our life,
Now I am in a limbo and they say I am alive.
I go through the motions, I breathe, I eat, I sleep,
I even talk and smile and they say I am alive..

When I am all alone,
That is when it hurts the most,
That is when I allow myself to think of you.
But then without you,
I am always alone... 

What Do You Do?

What do you do,
When the words are not enough?

When you can think the words but not the meaning.
When three words nor a thousand words can ever suffice,
To pierce this unending numb blanket of silence.
That is as much outside as it wraps and warps your inside.
Permeating deep within becoming as much a part of you as life.

Where do you start? 
How do you pierce this silence?
How do you undo what's done?
How do you go back the path you've covered,
When you are struggling to even stand.

Maybe the silence is there for a reason.
Maybe you hesitate for a reason.
The mind cannot fathom what the heart knows as true.
But really, What do you do?  

For Now

For now, let me catch my breath,
lend me an instant of rest.


For now,
Let me bask in the sun, absorb the warmth,
Let me feel the breeze, the soft rustle of leaves.
Listen to the sparrow sing as I lie on the grass.
A tingling sensation in my feet.


For now,
Let me watch the sunflowers dance with the breeze,
Fill my lungs with their smell, Ah.!! so sweet.
Let me fly with the seeds, on the wind, far and far and far.
Let me hum a silent song, a silent prayer
for this momentary peace.
Let me croon with the honey bees


For now

Until we meet again

I need to take a step back, to move on.
Trace a new path in this wilderness,
to find a new world.


I rest my hands on the knob, reluctant to open the door,
But as i reflect, I see you have left.
From where I stand, I can see you, smaller and smaller,
yet I am happy. You have chosen your path
and I need to do the same.


An untread road lies before me,
I need to take that first step.
This is the place where our paths met
and our fates separate.
Until we meet again..!!


PS: Just something from my diary. Read it today and found it relevant to
so many aspects of my life as it is now. 

I Love You

I love you... I love you so much....
I've loved you ever since,
I gained consciousness of who I am .
I was nothing before you, 
I am nothing without you.

You are my life , my breath, my sustenance.
Without you I am but a shadow, a wraith,
You are my light, 
my source of existence.


I love you from the deepest of depths,
with feelings so intense, that I can no longer resist 
the whirlpool that pulls me down, 
In your love, I want to drown..


Yes I'm crazy, Yes I'm insane,
I love you , I want you, I have lusted for you..
and , Yes, denying any of this is vain.
For you I'll do anything, 
to get you, I'll stop at nothing.

My love for you is all consuming,
 This fire burns within me,
In this fire I constantly burn.

Ilove you with such a fervor
that I hate you for what I've become.

I Can't Say I Love you

If I acknowledge it, it becomes real,

And the chasm between us widens.

Atleast now I can see you

Be sure you'll listen if I call you.

But if I acknowledge it, It frightens me that i'll lose you.

My self is shattered in pieces,

Can you wait till I can collect them all?

Can you wait till I find myself,

till I can fill the gap.

Can you wait for me to reach you ?

I know it is too much to ask,

Can you forgive me when I say

That even though I do

I can't say I love you.

Realizations

Sometimes I sit looking out of my window,
Gazing at the world, dance..
To the rhythm of moon and the hum of sun..
All bound to times' eternal tune..
And the baton of a Higher one.

I look at the sun,
I look at the moon,
So high and mighty in the sky,
As they touch all alive, renewing their life...
I wonder ,where and what, I am.

As I remain fixated to the evanescent tranquility of my thoughts,
I watch from the sidelines..
The road moving away ..
With misty eyes and a sanguinary brush..
I try to paint the face of my life.

On the canvas appears a blurred image,
I see blue and black and hues of gray but lo!! no red..
my blood was dead..!!

But there is another half, that is white and unstained..
It is a future I've yet to live,
It is a future I've yet to paint.
The past is past, the future is ..but the present..
And living in the moment is all I have..
So let me fill this moment,
With all the vibrant shades..
For the dots are mine, as are the colours
And as are the choices I make.

I look at the sun,
I look at the moon,
So high and mighty in the sky..
Touched by their golden light..
I set stride on my empyreal flight...

The Conflict..

Every other day...
I hear people say..
There is God
while, others say nay!

This amazing world,
and beautiful words.
The chirping birds,
the galloping herds..
Are all His masterpiece..

But!!

The words are vain,
the dying in pain..
they are also His..ain't they..??

Ah!!
See the mighty sun rise!
the flowers come to life..
But
The sun sets ,Sir..!!
and the flowers whither.

There's life !
There's death!
There's hope!
There's fear!
There's light !
There's night!
There's love!
There's war!

To each his own
I only say..

In a grain of sand..
lies faith confined,
In search of love
treads all mankind...

The Distant Tree..

One day I sat studying-
Besides the window pail,
While examinations were on head
I had to learn the story of snow and hail,
But I could not go ahead.

Just then I saw a distant tree,
Dancing with the air free,
It seemed to be telling me-
"Don't be afraid, and be like me..
See me as an example for you"..

" I have passed so many storms in life.
I have passed the famine days...
When there was disaster all around
and people were dying of hunger and thirst,
But I was not afraid.."

" I kept on standing,
Though weak and tired,
But I stood where I was,
Not like my fellow trees
who fell when the rain had just passed.."

The day was fine,
Finer than before.
And there and then I took the oath,
To never be afraid and fear anything.
I saw the tree smiling at me..

O' Thank you , O' Thank you,
the distant tree. For
the path you have shown me.
O' Thank you , O' Thank you,
the distant tree.
Dancing with the air free....



Ps: This was a poem i wrote in my seventh standard..on the back of my question paper( subject escapes my memory).The next exam was geography which though I didn't dislike ..I hated studying...
The words and punctuations are all as I wrote originally though now I can see a lot of improvement but then those were the thoughts and vocabulary of a thirteen year old..!!